fuck up.

just go ahead let your hair down.

I realized only a couple hours ago that I'm really bad at making people feel better when they're in crappy situations. Like, when someone starts crying in front of me, I have no idea what to do. When someone's mad, I have no idea how to cheer them up. Like... it shouldn't be that hard right? But it's definitely a struggle for me. I never knew how much worse I made situations for people. I should just shut up sometimes and not even try because it will go no where with me. Sorry!

Jesus rises to heaven! Yummy. I can play video games and I'm now a free woman! Haha, just kidding. I still got stuff on the lockdown for my homeboy, J. I really have to start getting my head out of my butt and start working hard for school. Cause shoot, my grades are gonna start dropping quicker than Lindsey Lohan's pants if I keep on working like this. I don't mind staying up at night, but I can't always guarantee I'll always be awake during the day. Which is 10x worse because I'm missing loads of instruction. Oh well.

I'm definitely looking forward to a lot of things.
1. My birthday (I get my license!)
2. One3one, who wants to go?!
3. DTDP Camp (sadly it's the same weekend as Relay for Life, so I can't go! Sorry Sue, I love you girl!)
4. California in July! WHAT'S GOOD SANTA CRUZ.
5. End of fastpitch season in general.
6. End of school.

I get confirmed this Saturday and I'm scared shitless. Lol. The wildwaves interview thing is also Saturday. (SUE?! LILY?!) I wanna go because for some odd reason, I really want that job. But that means I'll have to lose loads of pounds to look good in that cute one piece & shorts. :) I'm trying to get that summer body I've wanted for like 3 years but I'm such a sluffer. Haha. But I'm excited.

Goals for now:
1. Eliminate bad words from my vocabulary (it's already almost there)
2. Get my act together (school wise & Jesus)
3. Stay home & help Momma.
4. Chicks before Dicks
5. Negative 10 lbs. Haha.