I need to fart.

1. I hate school.
2. There's so much to do before school ends.
3. I need to get my grades up pronto!
4. I really hope cheer doesn't suck next year, although it probably will.
5. Oh, and I'm not going to camp (which sucks for Nora and Nashelle) Sorry babies.
6. I'm never satisfied with my teachers.
7. I feel so gay everytime I say I love Ms. Jensen, but I really do.
8. and Ms. Reed's the only teacher that cares about me.
9. I'm happy she's teaching IB next year!
10. I don't have to worry about a lot then.
11. I have no idea where my future's going.
12. I kind of wish I was single again,
13. But a boyfriend is pretty cool as well.
14. I know things are wrong but I do them anyways.
15. I look at other people and see that it's okay because they do it, but sometimes it's not okay.
16. I need to lose a lot of weight.
17. I'm so happy Prom is coming up.
18. I'm taking my written on Monday!
19. Hopefully I'll get my license Tuesday or Wednesday.
20. I'm having a bonfire in about two weeks, anyone's invited.
21. Did I mention that I'm taking my written on Monday? and hopefully getting my license next wednesday.
22. I'll start driving to school! Yay.
23. I'll probably go home for lunch everyday because it's free and I hate school lunches.
24. I'm on a rice diet and it's actually working (Haha, ana)
25. There's parties like every weekend on every street corner.
26. I never go cos I don't want to.
27. I'm happy for clubone3one though.
28. I'm trying to imagine how summer's going to be.
29. Hopefully I can get a job. I'm still waiting on Wildwaves.
30. I'm supposed to call in mid-june, so my patience is unnerving.

Procrastination

I spent a nice couple hours with Hork today, and we talked about a lot. Lol, I'm starting to build a lot of trust for him. He's a good friend. I respect him cos he has a lot of good intentions, he just gets screwed over in the end cos girls are bitches! Rawr. Oh well. We got Hork's tux today and he's gonna have to pick it up on Thursday. Sad that we couldn't find a vest and tie that would match. But it's whatever. My color's a hard color to match with. I'm excited for Prom cos I'm in that dancing stage again. It's a once a quarter must-do type thing. Haha, I can't wait for Ana's 16th cos we're going to 131. Lilichka, yah? I'm so excited for school to be over, no joke. I'm so done and I'm so lazy. I have so many tests I still need to make up! Hahah, shoot! I'm failing two classes and I have a D in one class. It's horrible. I need to get those back up.

I've spent like hours on this blog. Haha. I quit.

I want to make love in this club.

1. Banquet was fun yesterday
2. I'm so tired right now
3. I look like I've been crying for days
4. Me and edith connect on a level that I've never thought before
5. hahaha, "I used to be so bad." pfft "I used to be so good."
6. Ms. Jensen's pregnant,
7. Speaking of pregnant, I found out yesterday that someone I know is pregnant.
8. It was so hard to believe.
9. I need to get more sleep.
10. Camp is in like two days and I'm totally not ready
11. I need to go to target soon again.
12. We're doing stuff with DNA in Biology right now
13. I'm so tired !
14. My eyes are falling out.

Birthday

Gifts:
Coach Shoes - Johnny
Animaland Stuffed Animal - Johnny's Momma
Starbucks Cup + Lip gloss and Lotion - Lilichka
Lighter Fluid (and non-existant zippo) - Nathan
KIX - Rykiel
Card - Sue & Jenna

Text Messages:
Peejay (&Gabe) , Marco, Nathan, Rykiel, Loan, Gelly, Anthony, Sean D, Thy, Lauren & Aline Golden, Leena, Amy, Deejay.

"Happy Birthday"
Johnny, Hork, Peejay, Davina, Hiep, Horner, Ralph, Kira, Leah, Nathan, Ana, Susane, Jenna, Jill, Edith, Larissa.

People who forgot but then remembered after a while:
MOMMA haha, Bradley, Mary, David, Chris, Mimi, Ashley S, Mustafa, Brandon E, Stephan ?, Watanabe, Josie, Jordan(s), Katie, Brittany, Mama Hondolero, Mark, Zeenis, Sierra & Liz, Madame, Nghi, Jiwon, Dmitriy, Ms. Hunt, Ms. Rue, + lots more.

That's all I remember for now.
Thanks everyone!

"How come you never blog?"

Well Happy Birthday to me today. Haha.
I've gotten lots of hugs and text messages, two gifts (one from Lillis and another from @fatrykiel). I've gotten a lot of new compliments on my new coach shoes. LOL.

"It's only coach." - Me
"Pfft, you say it like you wear million dollar coach shoes everyday." - Nathan
"ALL DAY EVERYDAY" - Me

Thanks Johnny. Haha.
His mother got me this monster looking purple stuffed animal with three eye-balls. And it's so cute! I have my banquet later on today and I'm excited but scared at the same time cos I don't know what's going to happen. Last year I got pied in the face and this year, who knows what I have in store. I'm excited to get my license. I want in sometime next week so I can drive myself to Prom so my boyfriend doesn't trip, HAHA. It's alright though.

I didn't go to school yesterday. I didn' t do much at home either. I finished some of my math homework but I'm still behind in class. I did Ana's hair again and I must say, it's cute. I had probably 8 jello shots when I realized that I'm not a lightweight. Shoot, Ana was tipsy after like 4. They were doubles too! I still have some, but they're at Johnny's house. Yesterday was the epitomy of why I hate vodka. I was blow drying Ana's hair and I went to go sit on my window sill and I almost fell out. It was freaking scary. @svhuong came over to my house yesterday too but only stayed for like 30 minutes. I bought those fatties taco bell. YUM. But then yesterday I realized that I definitely need to lose like 10lbs. RICE DIET, what's good. I have had no appetite the last few days, and it's weird cos I haven't done anything.

I was hungover this morning, and I was kind of surprised cos it was only Jello! Pfft. Maybe it's cos I made a new batch and used that crazy 3-star vodka that tastes like nail-polish remover. BAHAHHAHAA. Oh well.

I have camp this weekend and I'm gonna be so tired.

Calendar

Tonight; Choir, Sky Night, & Amylinh's Party
Saturday; Take Written and schedule drive, Dress shopping?
Sunday; DTDP Final, Church
Monday; Hurdles with Amy, Dinner with MILF & Johnny, Party afterwards?
Wednesday 27th; 16! Fastpitch Banquet @ Lake Meridian, and License, hopefully.
Thursday; Dinner w/ Rayden Cheung
Friday - Sunday; DTDP CAMP.

No Title.

We're learning about making babies in Ms. J's class! :)

Doing all I can to avoid my NAFTA project

*disclaimer: it gets pretty gross. Haha. Avg. conversation between me & johnny.
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Johnny: Yea right i know iam cute so it don't matter stop hating, this calls for that iam fly song by gabe.

Quan: Shut up Gabe platys for no one but me.

Johnny: Yea keep dreaming babe, it's okay megan good has my kids but no one knows ha!

Quan: I hope you get hep c.

Johnny: Shut up, you got hep b, so you shut up.

Quan: You have orchitis. That's why your balls hurt.

Johnny: You know what babe, balls don't hurt anymore so ha!

Quan: Do you want them to hurt again?

Johnny: Do you want it on your face sucka!

Quan: I'm throwing you in the lake when we go camping.

Johnny: You think you can pick me up babe?

Quan: I'll drag you. If not. then you're sleeping outside.

Johnny: What the hell, 1. Iam not sleeping outside, 2. Your not dragging anyone, 3. You don't wanna get beat up and be in the lake naked

Quan: I'm a light sleeper. I'll make up and I'll pee on you for even trying.

Johnny: Iam to I wake up if one little thing touches me, and if you ever piss on me, i will make sure you get jizzed on.

Quan: Haha, I'll make sure I'm on my period when I piss on you.

Johnny: I'll make sure ill jizz and piss on your face.

Quan: You'll come home to cracked effs all over your gucci sheets.

Johnny: I'm locking my door from now on, and you're going to come home with no trans am.

Quan: Do that and I'll make sure your moped will get turned inside out.

Johnny: You mean ducati babe? and sheesh ill put that in my room.

Quan: I'll beat your door down with my bat and throw your bike down the window.

Johnny: You can't even pick me up how are you going to pick up a bike?

Quan: Who said I'll have to be gentle with it.

Johnny: Calm down babe, wow.

This is for Sue

Susane V. Huong,
I am terribly sad that you're leaving next year. Man we've been thru thick and thin and shoot, I'm going to miss seeing you everyday! You have to take at least one class at KM or something and at least go to lunch with us. Haha. I miss talking to you girl! What happened? Seems like we've been drifting away and I miss you. I like going over to your house, so I think I'm going to do that a lot more often (bad grammar) hah. Your room is so cute, and I love your living room. I like watching creepers walk by while we're watching movies or TV. Hahaa. And ling lings while watching Baby Momma. Nice. :) Se7en dancing in your brother's room. (How embarassing). Elmer Fudd and what was yours? Something Fred? I don't even remember, shoot. This was all so long ago. I still have our notes! They're all in a box in my room, and my goodness. We used to talk like little annoying teeny boppers. I remember all these nicknames we had! Peanutbutter and Jelly, Sue Jeezy and Quan Deezy, Master T0fu and ... something, SUGARPOO AND HONEYBOO. Lol, now that I think of it, wtf ? We were so weird! I loved going over to your house when you had dial-up and we'd go to Fred Meyers and waste our time to wait for our youtube video to only half-load when we'd come back. HAHA. We had so many songs. Grillz, This Is Why I'm Hot. And then we wore skirts over jeans, wtf? Why were we so weird! But girl I miss you! and I still love you! We will hang in the summer. Lakes, bbq's, party hardy!

and I swear, if I don't see you at least like once a week next year, I'm gonna throw a fit.

Gravity.

It's so beautiful out today! It was pretty nice yesterday too. I went over to Bf's house and we settled our little argument. (Like really, who says "I might get bored of you later, then I'll just give up and stop trying." ? Stupid douche.) But it's over. Haha. I'm glad that I got that off my mind. I went to a family party afterwards and it was fun. I got some of my homework done, but some of it not done. I have barely started on my NAFTA project and I'm pretty sure I'm going to fail CWI because of this. But I don't care. I can't wait until I get a job. I really need to because I need to make money. Heo said she might be able to get me a job at Coldstone's, possibly. As long as I show up to the "audition" date. :) I'm excited to get my license. I'm probably going to renew my permit sometime this week and then take my written. I get insurance on my car on the 21st, and that's great! I will hopefully skip 6th period or something on my birthday and then go down to the DOL and take my drive test. Hopefully I can schedule it during school because I really want it ASAP. But I know once I get my license, I'm not gonna want to drive to school or drive anywhere period. I hate driving. I like having the freedom, but who cares. I like being at home anyways. Lol, but when summer hits, that's going to be a whole different story! :D

I'm waiting for all of these people to leave my house so I can possibluy go to alki. I'm trying to leave ASAP. It's so nice out and I really should be working on my project, but knowing that we live in Seattle, days like this aren't going to come every-so-often. :) I'm a sluffer. I don't know how I'm supposed to do IB next year.

I love blogging from my phone. :)

My teachers need to get boyfriends. Except Ms. Reed and Ms. J.

Piano Prodigy

Just went with the flow.

I was looking at baby pictures yesterday and they're so hilarious! I didn't know how cute I was when I was little until now. Lol. I wish I still looked like that, but it's okay. It's funny how sometimes when you look at kid's baby pictures, you can't even tell that it was that person. But mine are the complete opposite. Haha, you know for sure it's me. I looked a lot like my little sister (or she looked liked me) and I thought that was interesting cos we're not the least bit identical now. Ha, and I also looked like a little chinese girl. It's cute. I was fat and chubby, and pale, and my eyes were little. I made ugly faces and did weird things, but they're so funny. I can remember some of the things that happened in these pictures, hah. It's kind of weird. Anyways, I'm gonna scan some of them and post them on here, as well as facebook. It'll be great. I'll share my memories with you!

Hahaa. RIF notices were sent out yesterday and it's kind of disappointing. I don't like some of these teachers but it's a bad feeling that they got "fired". I'm happy Watanabe gets to keep fer job though! :)

I want to watch the middle school track meets. I think I'm gonna look up when they are right now. Haha, bye!

What do you say if you're talking to God, and he sneezes?

That literally made me laugh out loud. Haha, that's so funny.

I had a bipolar weekend. I spent Saturday driving Nathan & Thomas around here and there, then cleaning my house, getting some homework done, going to Johnny's, getting in fights, 7 alarm chicken, etc. Sunday morning I woke up at like 5am to take Thomas home from Dan's house all the way to Tacoma. We got lost trying to find our way back to 512, but we found it. I had a 7-11 slurpee at like 7am in the morning, but I don't care. Lol. Nathan really is a cool cat. I can't wait until I get my license, but I need to get insurance on my car. *sigh* There's a lot of stuff happening this month. I have camp the last weekend of May, and the preparations are going to be so stressful. Only 30 some days of school left and I'm so excited. :) Not too long until I can be free.

I'm so tired right now. and I want my lettermen's jacket! I'm wearing Jenna's right now and I just want to sleep in it. Haha.

oh and btw - Ms. Hunt took away my phone. stupid b.

It's almost unbearable.

"You just need to find someone that will accept you for who you are. If it doesn't work out then everything happens for a reason. If it comes back, that means it was meant to be there." -Hork
Hmm, you're really testing me now.

Every little thing I do, you are.

I tweeted this but I'm gonna say it again:
Sometimes I ask myself if these things are really worth it, and I get upset cos most of the time, I know it's not.

You know, I don't know why I set myself up for all of these things. I don't know why I let myself go through all of this unneccesary drama, but I really don't need it. I really do like how things are going but I'm living a life of sin right now. It's so bad, it's unbearable. I need Jesus more than ever right now. Sometimes, I wish I could rewind and start over.

I'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry jesus. I'm so sorry.

Someone please tell me if this is stupid or not:

Quan: You shouldn't trust people so easily in the first place. Haha, cos then this stuff happens. But people make mistakes, they do dumb things, they need to be forgiven eventually.

Johnny: Man like the time you smoked weed I was in denial.

Quan: I was like living in the biggest world of regret, but there's nothing you can do about it. So I'm just making sure it's never again.

Johnny: That made me not want to trust you again but eh.

Quan: If you didn't then it's completely understandable. I couldn't do anything about it.

Johnny: You could have prevent it act whatever it happened, so iam stop talking about it.

Quan: I could have, but I didn't. Therefore it's my fault. So I'd understand every negative feeling you had towards me.

Johnny: Let's talk about something else, this makes me mad and don't trust you.

Quan: I hope trust isn't gonna be that big of an issue in the future.

Johnny: It is kinda for me right now, but I don't want to say anything.

Quan: Well if it's a problem then that's not okay :/

Johnny: Well it's been done babe, and I don't know. It's hard for me to trust, I been cheated and lied to too many times.

Quan: and you think I haven't? I trust you and I'll take your word for whatever you say. But I know if something happens (which it won't) then I'll be mad at myself.

Johnny: Well anyways, have fun tomorrow and I don't know my plans yet.

Quan: You have fun doing whatever as well babe, I'm not gonna do anything stupid so don't even worry about it. Take my word.

Johnny: You think that helps? Alright I guess, if anything your loss.

Quan: I don't know if I can say or do anything at this point. Just hope that I'll regain everything back.

Johnny: I don't know. I don't care, do whatever you like, just don't regret it.

Quan: Well I don't want you to doubt me and my actions and think I'll be like wreckless, cos that's what I'm getting from you right now.

Johnny: Honestly, that's what iam thinking right now. Like I said, sometimes I don't know your actions and sometimes I do. Somethings that you do, I don't find out until weeks later.

Quan: What's the worst thing I can do. I'm not drinking or smoking weed becos I'll die the instant it gets into my system. I'm not gonna cheat on you because that's just not something I do. I told you before this relationship that I'm gonna stay faithful and that's what I still intend on doing, now & always.

Johnny: I don't know, at this point everything will be freestyle.

Quan: It seems to me like you're intentionally pushing me away cos you're afraid I'm gonna hurt you or something. And I'm not so comfortable with that.

Johnny: Well iam sorry you feel that way. I don't want to end up feeling stupid, you said you don't like some things and was against it but turns out you did it anyways, how should I cope with that? Tell me.

Quan: I took a hit, that's it. Just one. I wasn't completely blazed. Nothing hurts curiousity, but it is my fault and I admitted it. I was being a hypocrite and I'm sorry. But nobody's perfect.

Johnny: Yeah so what iam saying is what makes you think iam trust you when you say you're not going to cheat.

Quan: Because cheating to me is on a whole different level. What's the point of being in a relationship, so I can intentionally do something stupid with another guy? I'd never want to be cheated on by you, so I won't do it to you.

Johnny: If you say so? If you know yourself and whatever then good I guess, but iam whatever now so do what makes you happy.

Quan: I'm obviously not gonna be happy if you're not. But whatever.

Johnny: Yeah whateva.
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Honestly, I don't understand where he'd even get the idea that I would cheat on him. Wow. I'm disappointed, mad, upset, confused, in shock, etc.

Happy Birthday to Lilifer & @fatrykiel

It's funny how when I start talking about Ms. Hunt without directly saying her name, people already automatically know I'm talking about her. Haha. Btw, I'm pregnant, SIIIIIIIKE.


Today's a good day.

Details in the Fabric

If it's a broken part, replace it.
If it's a broken arm, then brace it.
If it's a broken heart, then face it.

I definitely smell like Polo Ralph Lauren Black Cologne right now. Haa. I'm so hungry you don't even know. But I had breakfast this morning! I'm so excited to go to Biology for some reason. I just hate every other class like so much that Biology is definitely my favorite class.

I'll blog later, I'm too lazy.
I want a double cheeseburger from mcdonalds.

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So I'm kind of in like a "i hate things" mood. Haha. I'm so pissed, I have no idea why. Or well, sue & I are planning a mass murder, and that's part of the reason. Bahaha. Also because boyfriends are stressful sometimes. Only sometimes, not all the time. Just sometimes.

I love you.

oh git it git it git it.

I'm so in love. Gabe Bondoc is such a beautiful person. Haha, the concert was very very very good. I would show you pictures, but they're all on facebook right now. I went with my cousin & her boyfriend, plus my boyfriend and my sister. I got home around 12:30 at night, and the next day I woke up at 7:30 to go to church. I had DTDP classes then had nothing to do for 2 hours. I ended up going home and then going to church with Johnny & my sister at 5:30 ish. Afterwards, we dropped my sister at home and I took him to Goodwill so we could drop off clothes and then we bought food and I did my homework while he cleaned his closet. I got most of my math homework done but I'm still so confused. It's all really really hard. Haha, I don't get any of it. :/



Oh yeah, we had Little Royals Cheer Clinic. The last two hours of it were the longest MF hours of my life. Hahha. I went home to take a dump and kill time. The girls were cute and stuff but they started to get really annoying. But whatever. It was over in no time. Then I went shopping with Johnny and got my new camera charger and new batting gloves. It was nice. :) I really can't wait until I get my license. My parents can't wait either, shoot. Haha. I just want school to be over. I hate school so much.


I need to get my grades up.

Girl from Ipanema

I'm so sleepy right now.
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I fucking hate this motherf class. so much. I swear to god, I'm gonna stab her. I'm so angry.