Quan: You shouldn't trust people so easily in the first place. Haha, cos then this stuff happens. But people make mistakes, they do dumb things, they need to be forgiven eventually.
Johnny: Man like the time you smoked weed I was in denial.
Quan: I was like living in the biggest world of regret, but there's nothing you can do about it. So I'm just making sure it's never again.
Johnny: That made me not want to trust you again but eh.
Quan: If you didn't then it's completely understandable. I couldn't do anything about it.
Johnny: You could have prevent it act whatever it happened, so iam stop talking about it.
Quan: I could have, but I didn't. Therefore it's my fault. So I'd understand every negative feeling you had towards me.
Johnny: Let's talk about something else, this makes me mad and don't trust you.
Quan: I hope trust isn't gonna be that big of an issue in the future.
Johnny: It is kinda for me right now, but I don't want to say anything.
Quan: Well if it's a problem then that's not okay :/
Johnny: Well it's been done babe, and I don't know. It's hard for me to trust, I been cheated and lied to too many times.
Quan: and you think I haven't? I trust you and I'll take your word for whatever you say. But I know if something happens (which it won't) then I'll be mad at myself.
Johnny: Well anyways, have fun tomorrow and I don't know my plans yet.
Quan: You have fun doing whatever as well babe, I'm not gonna do anything stupid so don't even worry about it. Take my word.
Johnny: You think that helps? Alright I guess, if anything your loss.
Quan: I don't know if I can say or do anything at this point. Just hope that I'll regain everything back.
Johnny: I don't know. I don't care, do whatever you like, just don't regret it.
Quan: Well I don't want you to doubt me and my actions and think I'll be like wreckless, cos that's what I'm getting from you right now.
Johnny: Honestly, that's what iam thinking right now. Like I said, sometimes I don't know your actions and sometimes I do. Somethings that you do, I don't find out until weeks later.
Quan: What's the worst thing I can do. I'm not drinking or smoking weed becos I'll die the instant it gets into my system. I'm not gonna cheat on you because that's just not something I do. I told you before this relationship that I'm gonna stay faithful and that's what I still intend on doing, now & always.
Johnny: I don't know, at this point everything will be freestyle.
Quan: It seems to me like you're intentionally pushing me away cos you're afraid I'm gonna hurt you or something. And I'm not so comfortable with that.
Johnny: Well iam sorry you feel that way. I don't want to end up feeling stupid, you said you don't like some things and was against it but turns out you did it anyways, how should I cope with that? Tell me.
Quan: I took a hit, that's it. Just one. I wasn't completely blazed. Nothing hurts curiousity, but it is my fault and I admitted it. I was being a hypocrite and I'm sorry. But nobody's perfect.
Johnny: Yeah so what iam saying is what makes you think iam trust you when you say you're not going to cheat.
Quan: Because cheating to me is on a whole different level. What's the point of being in a relationship, so I can intentionally do something stupid with another guy? I'd never want to be cheated on by you, so I won't do it to you.
Johnny: If you say so? If you know yourself and whatever then good I guess, but iam whatever now so do what makes you happy.
Quan: I'm obviously not gonna be happy if you're not. But whatever.
Johnny: Yeah whateva.
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Honestly, I don't understand where he'd even get the idea that I would cheat on him. Wow. I'm disappointed, mad, upset, confused, in shock, etc.
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